Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Astro Kirana

Phew, I was actually half vanished from this blogging stuff ever since I started my internship, but then, it's going to end very soon, only a couple more days, and I will be seeing my girls again, and I bet, we are gonna share so so much hahaha! Can't wait...

Alright I attend a short film award 2007 at Sunway Convention Hall, was organized by Astro Kirana, was a good experience thou...

So there, among 100 short films, 10 was nominated, and guessed what, "The Promise" was nominated as one of the Top 10, and here I would like to take this opportunity to thank those who voted for the film, that we won the Audience Award category, hahaha... Well, special thanks to Phei Ni,Mady,Cades,Carmen,Alisha and many many more lol!

So that night, sat with Patrick and wife Jennifer on a same table, while Sia and Sook Kee was separated from us, how sad... :(
There were guest like Carmen Soo, 3R girls, Ammir Mohammed who directed Durian,The Last Communist and his latest film will be Susuk, Osman Ali and great backbones from Puteri Gunung Ledang, and again, many many more...

The ambiance was kinda ok for a first timer cause this is the 1st time Kirana hosting such ceremony which I think it's marvelous to get new fresh blood into the film industry to increase the fame of Malaysia cinema talent.
The Top 3 winners, which I predicted the exact 3 films will be having the awards, 1st runner up and the grand prize winner's films was really stunning and the impact was really good, from here, we noticed that, in Malaysia, there are many talented freshies are waiting to express their great passion in the film industry.

If any of you are interested to know why are they the winners, you will be greatly impressed by their performance and teamwork, try log on to Astro website and go for the short films award, you will see a listed nominated films... 1st runner up was" Shou Ji" and grand prize winner was "Beautifool Life"... Seriously, I really think that these 2 films deserved the award, you will understand what am I trying to say when you watched them, and Dang, you favourite actress was nominated as the best performance award, which I'm glad she got it too ^^

Do watch Astro Kirana on every Monday 11pm, there will be short films shown on screen as well, and by March, top 10 nominated films will be screened as well hehe...
Here I would really wanna thanked Sia for giving such opportunity and experience ^^...

Monday, December 10, 2007

Please Don't...

Please don't let me dislike talking to you
Please don't let me begin ignoring you
Please don't let me look down on you by how you behave
Please don't let me loose my respect towards you
Please don't let me have the feeling of frustration when I see you
Please don't let me get irritated when you ask really dumb questions
Please don't let me have so many chances to raise my voice against you
Please don't let me think that you are the black sheep among others
Please don't let me repeat things which had been repeated a thousand times
Please don't let me stop saying hi to you
Please don't let me think that talking to you is such suffering and wasting time

Just you know who you are... Please don't... I'm getting real sick...

Thursday, November 08, 2007

自然减肥方法

姐妹们
我最近发现了乐一格减肥方法 但你们不要学哦 不健康。。。

原来人失恋 是很自然地没有胃口 就算再美的美食 你都不会吃。。。
而且。。。
很容易发呆
很容易胡思乱想
很容易想睡觉 因为睡觉才不会觉得痛苦
很容易无精打采
很容易想大声地喊

不止这样。。。
很难开心地笑
很难有心机做事
最终的是。。。
真的很难控制不哭
因为。。。
我从第一句打到现在,
竟然说服不到自己不要哭。。。

自然而然, 我应该也会减轻几磅。。。
有人告诉我, 到底眼泪会让我瘦吗?
因为我担心我会便排骨,

泪水,你可以不要流了吗?

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Happy Deepavali?

Wishing al my Indian fellas who is celebrating this festive, do have a really wonderful one ok?! HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

Tomorrow, a holiday, woohoo! But unfortunately it's only 1 day, so I was wondering, why do Indians get to celebrate their festive for only one day?! Malays have their long holidays for Hari Raya , and counting in other Raya Haji plus minus, Chinese do have their Chinese New Year and also other small small festives, but Indians, I only heard of Deepavali and Thaipusam, so total sum up it's only 2 days.. 2 days?!

Talking about festive, besides Deepavali, X'mas is on his way here, after that, looking forward to Chinese New Year! Yay!! So there is a benefit living in a multi racial country, where you can have all sort of holiday even the festive has nothing to do with you, untungnya~ Well let me take one day, I don't know when, I will count how many holidays we have in a year,that would be interesting eh?

Looking forward for x'mas, just hope there is no events up on that day, pray*
Oh one more thing, Christians do celebrate their own race festives do they, like Indian Christians celebrates Deepavali? Chinese Christians celebrates Chinese New Year? Confused...

Anyhow, good day to all and happy holiday, although it's only for 1 day, hahaha...

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Another one...

Another raping case...
9 year old Indian girl, raped and thrown out of the balcony...
She was left 2 hours without the parents...

Now, people say don't go out and stay at home,yu will be safe... But for now,staying at home isn't safe,so where do we go now? dig a hole and hide?

I used to walk with my 2 besties to school in the early morning, well nothing ever happens, except for once when I have to walk alone, I met this moron who actually half masturbating infront of me, wtf... That's where I carry my pepper spray...

So now, people are getting more violent, more beasty, more scary... Are we back to the uncivilize era, or we are worse than that?

Well you tell me...

P.S= girls, please be exra caution about our surrounding ok? ^^

Thursday, November 01, 2007

New Start

Stepped my foot at Star Event Company today, for the first time, 2 months internship,grr...
Well fist impression, superiors are nice, colleagues are nice, and everything nice, maybe it's the first day, everything seems fine...
I am looking forward to invloved myself into just anything that the company is dealing with, I wanna be as busy as I can, coz at this moment, I am just sitting down here, surfing the net and doing nothing...
Between, have anyone of you registered to ahmoi.com? Well the design is cute, I guess girls will love it so much, so if you are interested, go and do a slight survey,it won't take you long...

www.ahmoi.com

If anyone of you have registeredm add me at Jester85 ok?
Hope everyone is doing great in their internship ok? Muahhh!!


The cutie female version


The male version

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Alone...


I was watching a lot of those "virus transmitting" movies where once you are infected, you are a blood sucking creature, which is like 28 days later, 28 weeks later and resident evil... I don't know why I was so into these kind of movies, well maybe it's my own way of releasing stress, stress of boredom, hahaha...

While watching movies, I tend to put myself into the character, and feel if I were him/her, what would I do... This time, I put myself in this character in the movie of 28 days later...

If anyone of you watched this movie, I guess you all are familiar where this actor woke up in the hospital where not even a single person was in that hospital, slowly he moves to the main street of London, no cars, no people and empty shops... As if the whole London left him all alone there...

So there my auto mode switch on, putting myself in this character, where I woke up with no one in the house, slowly to the garden , and then the main street of KL... OMG how creepy is it? No one talking to you, no cars driving around honking, no shops open for selling, damn it's a dead city, it's seriously scary and horrible even if it is in the broad daylight, yuke! Don't feel good at all...

Learn t something, it's so good to hear people talking and laughing, it's so good to see traffic jams when you know there are hundreds of people are with you, it's just good to be crowded!!!

This is what we call-----> The reverse psychology

Hahaha good day everyone, and good luck in the internship!!

Monday, October 22, 2007

It's raining...

3.00am sharp, a really early Monday morning...
Can't sleep yet, I guessed my sleeping time is all upside down, have to better tune it back to normal before I start my internship...
Sitting in front of the computer,listening to sentimental songs, how can these situation not trigger my thoughts, so that's why I am blogging here...
Thinking deeply, about what have I achieve so far in my 22 years of life, second thought, I achieve nothing yet... Seeing and hearing stories and experiences from friends telling me that how much the have achieve, I felt so behind, I can;t even chase their shadow...
I am one career minded women which he sometimes wish that I am one who is not so adventurous... Well, since young, I think I am more tomboyish than any other girl,I love learning guy's thing;cars,sci-fi related stuff,being mechanical in my house... Believe me or not, I fixed my electrical household items that my dad thinks I am no difference from my brother lol...
Thinking how much will I achieve in the future, I don't even know what do I wanna achieve, I am still lost...
Anyone of you found your aim in the future yet? Share with me!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Just for laughter...

Ok I got this joke from an email,was nice, read it ok? Hehehehe...

A woman stopped by unannounced at her recently married son's house.
She rang the doorbell and walked in.
She was shocked to see her daughter-in-law lying on the couch, totally naked.
Soft music was playing, and the aroma of perfume filled the room.

"What are you doing?" she asked.

"I'm waiting for my husband to come home from work," the daughter-in-law answered.

"But you're naked!" the mother-in-law exclaimed.

"This is my love dress," the daughter-in-law explained.

"Love dress? But you're naked!"

"My husband loves me to wear this dress," she explained.

"It excites him to no end.

Every time he sees me in this dress, he instantly becomes romantic and ravages me for hours on end.
He can't get enough of me."

The mother-in-law left.

When she got home, she undressed, showered, put on her best perfume, dimmed the lights, put on a romantic CD, and laid on the couch waiting for her husband to arrive.
Finally, her husband came home.
He walked in and saw her lying there so provocatively.
"What are you doing?" he asked.

"This is my love dress," she whispered, sensually.

"Needs ironing," he said. "What's for dinner?

" video

Sunday, October 14, 2007

It farted...

Blardy...
Ok seriously I never knew animals do fart like a skunk,until that perfect afternoon...
I was laying down on the couch watching tv, as usual the si manja Ben will jump onto the couch and land on me,pose his sleeping pose, usually it would be his asshole, I mean his butt facing me, maybe he wanted some tv shows too, no idea about it...
Ok there it goes, it's like a silent killer,it comes so quietly but it leaves a deadly smell,omg! Right into my nose! At first I felt some warm air, and the smell follows.............
Confirmed it was him who did the farting, his stupid guilty look saying " I am sorry I farted right into your nose..." Those kind of look...
So, from that day onwards, When he land on me with his butt facing me, I have the phobia and I will turn him to the other side where his guilty face facing me...
Wonder why Bluey (my 7 year old bunny) nv farted, maybe he did, just not that stinko?

Monday, October 08, 2007

Song

There are some songs, when you hear them, it reminds you of that situation, it brings back the particular memory, happy, sweet, sad, heartbroken... I tend to tell myself that, I can forget things which I don't want them to come back to my memory box, but I was wrong, when you listen to a certain song, it actually brought back the exact feeling of things... I was wrong that, things cannot be forgotten, it was just hiding somewhere where you can't find them, until something happens, it comes back... This is a song from someone which I thought I can forget,unfortunately, I was wrong, still exist in my memory, the feeling of that time, just wanna ask, how are you doing now, it's been a long long time since we last sat down and talk, I know you were hiding from me before, and I did the same, till the day you called me back,things might not be the same anymore, but truly, you are still someone that I care... A friend... Remember this song?

梁静茹 可惜不是你

这一刻 突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天 今天同时在放映
我这句语气 原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点 骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变
却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上双眼 我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

那一段 我们曾心贴著心
(我想我更有权力关心你)
可能你 已走进别人风景
多希望 也有 星光的投影

努力为你改变
却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上双眼 我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

Friday, October 05, 2007

Breast Cancer

To all the girls,

Walked by pass a champagne the other day in college, it's all about breast cancer and how to fight it, I guess we should all be aware of it and it's danger, you won't wanna have half your breast cut off when you are in your 30s right? So I browse through the net and found some info for how do you know you are actually affected by this nightmare...

Changes that could be due to a breast cancer are
* A lump or thickening in an area of the breast
* A change in the size or shape of a breast
* Dimpling of the skin
* A change in the shape of your nipple, particularly if it turns in, sinks into the breast or becomes irregular in shape
* A blood-stained discharge from the nipple
* A rash on a nipple or surrounding area
* A swelling or lump in your armpit

Well a change in the size or shape of the breast, mm... I guess it's pretty normal to us girls, but if you are also facing the other symptoms, please please go to the doctor and do a check up ok? I will arrange a check up as well, just to put my mind in rest, anyone interested lol?

P.S= This is not only for girls, guys can get breast cancer in any chance too ok? But I guess it wont be the change in size or shape, if yes, u definitely have to consult a doctor, there is definitely something wrong hahahah!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Girls and Guys!



Hey! Mmm lately im trying hard to find nice movies, I had some already, but I am scratching my head to get more nice movies, categories would be romance and humour hahaha, so please please drop me a comment about which movie is nice to get? any language will do, but within the range of English, Mandarin or even Cantonese, I don't mind Korean movies too hahaha! Pls don't comment me on Bollywood movies, you girls know why...
Anyhow, presentation for seminar is superd near, it's just a blink of an eye, gosh gotta prepare it already, before that, good luck girls on the presentation and million thanks to Drew for the information you gave me ^^

Thursday, September 20, 2007

What is on their mind?!


Nurin, an 8 year old girl was found missing on 20th August, being raped and murdered brutally...

Now what is wrong with all these people now, what's going on in their stupid minds?!! Are these human beings or beast?! Don't they have bloody feelings for the victims? Don't they have nightmares every night after they committed such act? I believe even animals kill for a reason, meat eater kill for the sake of hunger... How many people around us are slowly evolving into some kind of beast?!

The old people always say," What is happening to the world now? Every page of the newspapers reporting tragedies instead of news that can lightened up a day..." So here, when is the last time you read the headlines and actually smiled? Some said all these tragedies were happening all the time, maybe in the good old days, news just did not cover so much of these stories like now... I don't think so...

Tsunami, earth quakes, mother nature disasters are wiping out numbers of live, is this a symptom of clearance?

Monday, September 17, 2007

Reality or Dreams?

Since young, for me, were asked to fill in the ambition blanks, I remembered filling in teacher, doctor and singer...
Slowly moving into the teenage world, the above ambitions seems to be getting far away from me, so as for my interest, I told myself I would stick to the doctor...
After form 5, the doctor's ambition vanished after all the years, and it confused me that was my ambition a reality or just a dream which you could only dream on?
At the age of early 20s, surprisingly a lot of occupation seems to be so unreachable where you could only dream on things, what happen to those ambitions which I filled in when I was just a kid? Kids often think that everything is possible, some might even filled in the blanks like, "I want to be a superhero..." which us, adults would laugh at them and tell them is impossible. While for adults, everything seems to be impossible, if you tell someone that," Hey I want to be a spaceman walking on the surface of the moon...", definitely you would have exchange those words with stares from your friends or even family, "What the hell? Spaceman? Why not you stop dreaming and get your feet back into reality!"
So, there you go, being a spaceman, a billionaire, a president of a country is all just illusion and dreams? So Bill Gates, George Bush, Valentina Tereshkova, the first woman in space were all not humans? Coz if we want to be them ,we can only dream about it and not having it stated down in the list.

There is these few words and phrases which push me from moving forward to the so call impossibles: There is a Will, There is a Way. If others can do it, why not you?

Be brave to chase your dreams and make it come true,there is a possibility. ^^

Thursday, September 13, 2007

13.9.2007

Mom went medical check up yesterday, result was that she has high blood pressure which she will have to take medicine to control it, mom let's go for exercise ok?

Ok tomorrow will be the day for it, hate it so much that I have to revise every damn thing again, but I guess I really deserved this.. So here I would like to wish all my fellow mates who's going for the second battle, GOOD LUCK!!

Read one old copy of reader digest, but still the information is never old :)
I would really like to share this with you all.

Preparing my son for his first day of kindergarden, we were reviewing numbers and counting. Suddenly he asked," What is the biggest number in the world?"
As briefly as possible, I tried to explain to him the concept of infinity, I thought I had done pretty well, but then he said," Dad, then what number comes just before infinity?"
-Shawn Foster,December 2001

Something to ponder over... ^^

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Love Story

Watched a Korean drama, finished 20+ chapters in 2 days, coz it is really addictive... I usually do not fancy all this drama as I am afraid to cry because of all this soap opera, but well, someone introduced me the drama, and I watch...
Was touching, it really touches ur heart that made ur tears drop...
Watching this drama made me think alot, that's why he is always afraid that I watch sad love stories, because after every love stories I watched, I will tend to ask alot of questions which he cannot answer, like " How if I have few days left in this world, what would you do?" He will always refused to answer and say " Pls do not say all this things? We are now healthy and nothing will happen?"
Well baby, life is where people get together, but at the end, it is always the split... I remembered when there were only few days ahead before my PMR arrived, my grandfather passed away,he was buried next to my grandmother's tombstone, when I saw my grandmother's tombstone, it was already grown with alga... Knew how long my grandfather waited to be re-unite with my his wife? It was a total of 15 years...
Dear, whenever I think of this, I don't know why I just got a painful feeling that makes me wanna cry and do nothing...
I will always miss you, no matter when or where...

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

人…


去马六甲的那一段路…
经过了孝恩,也都经过Nilai坟场…
顿时想起了一位朋友,在他十八岁的那一年因为肺癌而去世…
在车上的我,问了一个问题…

“人死了…那灵魂会去哪里?还会感觉到痛吗?”

“也许人死后,要去的地方,才是真正属于人的世界,如果不是的话,为什么在凡间会有那么多的悲伤下场…”

听了他那一番话,有点惊讶,这些答案竟然会从他口中说出…
想告诉你说,就算这世界是多么的悲惨,遇到你是我这生中最幸福的时候…
知道我每次说这番话,眼眶都会湿湿地,但还是忍不住要告诉你,
“希望头上长满了白发的我们,依然还会拖着彼此的手,欣赏天空的美…

Saturday, August 04, 2007

The pet NANNY!


Ok just that this is the punishment for biting off the pink roses from the hair tie band, remember and learn it from the lesson ok you lil boy! Hahahaha!

Saturday, July 28, 2007

蓝色..


最近养成了叹气的习惯...
也许就是因为平时透不过气来,所以一有机会,就很自然地叹一口长长地气...
岁月真的不留人,心灵上的确是老了许多...
想法也开始变老...
好想现在就躺在一个月光可以照进来的空间,
好让我可以享受被月光照射在脸上的感觉...
真的好想全世界都不发出声音,可以听到宁静的时候...

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Can't Breath

I am bombarded with all this assignments and presentations while I only have the weekends to do it, working hours is eating up a lot of my concentration in class, so tired... But well, at least I felt that my whole week is all fully utilized, just another thinking to make myself feel better... *sob*

Pop Culture
18/7/07 - Quiz
18/7/07 - Submission of assignment
25/7/07 - Presentation

Media Law
1/8/07 - Individual Presentation
3/8/07 - Mod court

IMC
31/7/07 - Submission of the project
7/8/07 - Presentation

Saturday, July 07, 2007

7.7.07

Ok I have to admit that I was so damn lazy that I don't even have the time to switch on my computer for these few days (Well sounded that I am busy rather than being lazy.. >.<)

But well, no matter what! Today it's a very special day, guess it might be only special to me, hey it only happens once every 1000 years! It's 7.7.07!! Muahuhuah!!

Alright went and watched Transformers that day, was awesome!! Goosebumps all time, ok I usually don't get goosebumps easily, it's either that thing is damn freaking good or it's too yukes!

Check out these pictures which I took it while I was at The Curve where all these sexy cars were parking right out there for exbition, it was the first preview for TRANSFORMERS!! There you go..


I love this Fair Lady!!!! >.<


Transformers!!! would it be nice for my lil Kelisa? Hahah!!!


I wanna bring her home!!!

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Is it still worthwhile?

So tired being considerate when you are not,
So tired when I knew I was right but I've to say sorry,
So tired when you started out the fire and blame me for starting it up,
So tired when you do things with $$$ in your mind first,
So tired when you break promises and you said that you never mentioned it before,

Because I am so tired already, that's why I felt tired too when you say sorry for all the stupid arguments that we don't really actually have to argue over.

Why do I have to fucking cry so easily when I argue with you,
Why do I have to force myself to talk shit when I'm still crying,
Why do I have to go through all those fucking temper when I know I dont have to,
Why do I have to consider so much for you when you dont,
Why do I have to put you at first place in everything when you dont,
Why do I have to doing things to make you happy when you still complain so much,

SueShen you were so right that few of us being so stupid and foolish when people dont even care to appreciate what we have done, not asking for a return but at least let us felt that its worth doing it, but I guess we have to accept that all this are facts from the realistic world.. Can't think about it, Im not even as important as playing mahjong with friends you know? ^^

Cheer up everyone and sorry for having an unpleasant post after some time :)

Sunday, June 17, 2007

The Journey...




They who are near to me do not know that
you are nearer to me than they are.
They who speak to me do not know that
my heart is full with your unspoken words.
They who crowd in my path do now know that I am walking alone with you.
They who love me do not know that
their love brings you to me.



r.tagore

Saturday, June 16, 2007

A night..


A night with thoughts and doubts..

Listening to the rain drops, peaceful and soul smoothing..
Imagining myself holding on an umbrella,
walking on the beautiful streets of London,
where every breath is chilling cold..

I love my freedom, I love my dreams..
But I know that it cannot be compared with reality..
Colourful, rhythmic, boarder less...

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Think b4 u SPEAK..

If you think bitching and spreading stupid rumours behind their back is gona help,
NO you are wrong, you are ruining your ownself reputation ^^

If you think that you don't need to think and say things that hurt people,
GOD I pity that you are stuck at the age below 3 ^^

If you think that you get jealous when people are better than you, and you do things behind them,
*LAUGH* You will only get worse doing those kid's thing instead of improving yourself ^^

If you felt that friends around you start to not talking to you,
You are losing away true friendship becoz of your silly act. ^^

If you think that people are the one to blame when you don't get to do your things well,
Lol I am very speechless about someone who is not responsible with their own act ^^

***People that were your victims before might felt offended, but remember, it's just for a moment of anger, because they are not like you, and of course, WE'RE GROWNUPS ^^

Cheers to my dearie girls! Miss you all alot, see you all in class soon!

Sunday, June 03, 2007

挫折..

今天有人收看华丽台的新秀大赛选拔赛吗?
就只是普普通通的比赛,可是..
到了淘汰关头,就有这两位参赛者,一男一女..
成绩宣布后,结果两位都没有很成功的进入下一场比赛..
司仪文康就安慰男的说:" 你还记得我问你的一个问题.."
"我问你..你最想唱歌给谁听? 你说....你最想唱给天上的妈妈听.."
说到这里.. 男的就哭了起来.什么也说不到..
"她一定听得到.." 文康说..
而我,只是电视机前的观众,眼泪自然而然的积聚在眼眶..

Friday, June 01, 2007

Changes..

I am pretty moody at this time, moody over small matters which it does not affect my life or people around me, but, it did affect my thoughts..

Friend:
You came back from Sabah since April, met you while I was having a dinner with my family.. Just dunno why, you changed alot since your father's death, and I know it was so sudden, although it was like almost a year already, but I knew it still give you an impact in your life..
The way you talk to me, you are so much more different, you talk so soft, you speak so uncertainly, you don't look the way you look last time, you don't smile and laugh so often like last time.. You are just a totaly different guy.. Someone told me, you start to smoke, you are puffing already, since when this young man where you used to oppose smoking so much... You made me worried..

Just got a news, a friend of my family, passed away..
..............................................*speechless*

Take good care and enjoy life, to everyone, especialy my dear girls and buddies..

P.S: When you are starting to count what you don't have, then you should start to count for what you have in your life, and at the end, you won't think that you don't have enough and life is great.. ^^

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Mom.. Dad..

Finally I am gonna start work next Tuesday, working as a part-time trainer, which I am going to train internal people about presenting and product briefing.

Mom.. Dad..Ever know that why I insisted in working? At first my timetable is quite loosen up and I do not want to waste alot of time doing nothing at home after class.. The priority of me getting a job, is actually for you both, to have the chance to shower you both with all I can earn for now, at this time..

My biggest wish, is to see you both go for holidays or even honeymoon without needing to come out with a cent, or even to worry about the budget of the whole holiday, all will be sponsor by me and of course brother.

I know you both will never read this, that's why I am gonna write down just anything that I wanna say, and wish that somehow one day, you can feel what I feel while writing this blog.

Mom dad, I knew during my schooling time, I showered you with alot of dissapointment, mom you even felt so heartbroken taht you actually cried for my PMR results for not scoring flying colours in it, such tough women I knew since I was born, not even the hardest day could make her shed tears, but it was me..

You are working hard, you carry high responsibilities, and you don't spend for yourself, when I asked why.. You always say :" It's not easy to earn money,if there is any emergency, at least there is some to count on.."

Tears are starting to roll down halfway through the blog..**

I knew it was hard, I knew it was suffering, I knew you were not in a bed of roses till now,you have not got the chance to sit back and enjoy, there is so much more I couldn't just type it here, so much more, there is just so much more..

Please let me promised you that, you will be enjoying life when your daughter is successful, it won't be long mom dad..
I love seeing you both smile and laugh, that's the greatest smile I ever seen in my whole life.. I love you..


Sunday, May 27, 2007

答应自己..

经过了那整晚的失眠.. 想起很多东西..
你说你特别在晚上,如果我睡不着,你会陪我..
昨天,你选择不管我..

这几年,真的好累..也许我们先前根本不该在一起..
为什么你可以给那么多的压力我,
你常说我是那种会要个百分百的人,你说这世上没有百分百的..
其实你有没有发现到,要求百分百的反而不是我..

昨晚的我,答应会把自己尽量地从这段感情连根拔起..

某人说:" 你知道为什么你会觉得我的眼睛美吗? 因为我一直看的都是你.."
You know why my eyes are beautiful? Because I am looking at you..

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Crowded Cinemas

Wow wow, starting from 24th of May, I guess you will be so horrified by the crowd of people purchasing tickets for this movie, gosh! Parkings are limited, ilegal parkings are overload, the crowd is somehow too big, wooh , it's like you can't breath the thin air!! *Gasping for air* =O
PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN!!!




But after this blockbuster, there are more to come!
*Resident Evil: Extinction




*Shrek 3: The Third




*Transformers




*Alon9 ( Well it's a thai horror movie,The Shutter's director)
*Harry Potter: Order of the Phoenix
*Die Hard 4!!

Alright talking about Shrek 3, went to Mc.D with him, guess what he got back for me? Lol blardy shrek! Jeez what I noticed at first was the people working at Mc.D were wearing green little shrek ears muahauahauha! The packing and the drinks all are in total green! Don't get what I meant? Go visit Mc.D one of these days haha, you will find that like you are in a swamp place where shrek used to hang out =D.
But anyhow,thanks baby for the shrek, love it so much, plus it can talk and er.. Burp? =D Freaking hillarious!

Monday, May 21, 2007

Smells....

Aww damn..!!
Bloody bodyshop is having those crazy sales again! And guess what, they came out a new and limited edition perfume named "White Musk Too",but well, after sniffing it haha, I guess I will stick on to my all time favourite "White Musk", I bought the body lotion, the smell made me remind of my old schooling days during the secondary days, where I used to carry this smell in school haha.. Those were the good old days where we used to laugh through the whole day, remember those days Mady, Esther and Han Seng? Really miss you guys, you guys are really friends for life!

Well you might not remember someone's name or their outlook, one thing you will always regconized and remember is the smell..
Cheers people! Have a great week!


The Collection of White Musk

Sunday, May 20, 2007

不翼而飞了...

哇... 好想哭噢!
我的宝贝可爱帖子不见啦! 授完房间每一个角落, 都找不到!
这两张是他送我的,很有纪念价值的...

帖子找不到, 反而灰尘一大堆! 害我要把房间抹一片!
希望早日可以找回它们..

Monday, May 07, 2007

喜剧之王


周星弛的一部戏..有一段很有意思..
周星弛与张柏芝坐在海滩..
芝就对着眼前黑暗的海滩说.. 咦? 眼前一片黑暗.. 什么都看不到..
弛就答说 .. 不是啊! 那边有一道光芒.. 如果仔细的看, 一定看得到!

What life is all about..


Ever encounter such situation when you can't sleep at night, staying up thinking about how your future looks like? You fell asleep without you yourself noticing it and the next morning you wake up, you feel so blur so aimles about your life..
Seriously I been through these situations many times,since when I started this? Since the day I started to think about my future..
A message for someone:
I know you are so worried and pissed off about your grades and marks for your results, and from here you started to link the grades to your future and afraid you might not have a good one.. Sweetie, no one knows about the future, you can't tell from your grades,they are not the fortune teller, you are you ownself fortune teller, you are incharge of what your future will be like.. Some people make billions, some did things that others thought it was a miracle, since there are people earning billions and making miracles, it shows that, you can be one of them too! Ask yourself,others can do it, why not you?! Why not me?!
You said working and studies, you are making your working life as primary,not so quick,no rush,no hurry,you have plenty of time to work, you even have your whole lifetime working, but studying is just a temporaly period for you to learn more,why not equip yourself more before you even step into a battlefield?
Our future are bright, as long as we never give up on it, don't let those obstacle pull you down,think of the other side of the coin, let them be your motivation to achive better,ok?

Friday, April 20, 2007

The Gastric..


I was striked by this pain call gastric after my last exam paper on Wednesday, honestly telling, the pain in me is still on going.. Posting out this blog is to remind friends of mine, please.. Beware of the gastric, it's indeed suffering..
I was awaken by this pain every 1 or 2 hours during my sleep in the midnights! I felt like vomitting, I almost cry and I know at the meantime I can't reduce my pain immediately,what I can do is to hope that I will become numb towards the pain..
Yesterday, I had only porridge and milk or cereal for the day, but still the pain won't stop! Till I seek the doctor, a placebo effect, I somehow felt better, thanks to him for insisting me to the doctor although he was dead tired after work..
Not sure when will the pain stop but I know it won't be that soon..

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Midnight 1.45am

It's 1.30am in the morning, an early Sunday morning.. I'm still awake, thinking about things that I don't have a solution.. Thousand questions, not even a single answer,how could it be? Or there is answers, that I just don't have the courage to face it?

I am sentimental, I think alot, my mood swings easily... Up to a stage where I might shed tears for no reason,is this bad? I don't know...

I guess I really need to stamp my footprints in any other places to refresh myself, to make myself feel better,to somehow get rid of these situations, or shall I say that I feel like hiding away from these questions..

If there is a time machine, no matter how expensive it is, I am sure I will get one for myself, I need it eagerly, to travel back time, and see what I have done wrong in the past, that led me to a stage like this...

Have a great Sunday :)

Sunday, March 04, 2007

伟大

这世界上…
每个人都有不同的想法…
想看当你关心一个人,自然而然你都不会要伤害他,
都会尽量顾他的感受…
却还来一句冷淡的回答与讽刺… :“你每次都以为自己很伟大…”
原来这样做,让他联想到的是我刻意要装伟大…
朋友说:不要对人太好,反而是自己受伤…

Monday, February 12, 2007

Day by Day...


Gonna have alternative midterm tomorrow morning which I have no idea what to study or prepare about, what a pity... Well try my best to study and understand and also recall for what Lina mentioned earlier in class to help me in tomorrow's paper.
I can't concentrate well, alot of thoughts running wild in my mind these days, alot that I can't figure out the solution, well I guess the best solution is that I don't do anything and let time help me solve it..
Well watched the short film this afternoon in the production room, seeing and looking at myself in the film was weird, weird is because in this final piece of work, I don't see the main actress as myself, automatically I see it as someone else, and this film is real nice after all the editing and stuff, a big thanks to ASAPH SIA the director aka main actor, and to Vincent the camera man, Joanna who helped us alot, Maggi the make up artist and Ting Fong the time record keeper hehe.. Was a dazzling experience as I've learnt plenty throughout the shooting...
Things will be like that if it have to...
Cheers to everyone and good luck to all!

Sunday, February 11, 2007

I'm Dreaming Tonight


在这世界上…
永远这个字还存在吗?

刚拍完一部短片,
故事是讲一对很痴情地情侣,
都相信着永远…

也许永远这个定义,
在每个人身上都不一样,
而我的定义呢?
放弃的那一天,就是达到永远…

有时人应该学会接受事实,
人一旦放弃了某些东西,都会对它不理不睬了…
我接受了…你呢?