For how it's going to be...
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
It's been more than half a month since the new year has begun, I should feel that it's a brand new start, and I guess I didn't manage to do it because I accidentally brought in the old stuff from last year to a new year, big mistake really...
How have I been feeling? I don't know, how could someone be at this stage for so long, way too long, tried many ways, or maybe I didn't try hard enough.
Sometimes the most simple things are the things that is the most difficult to have, I think being happy and love is quite simple, but somehow it doesn't last long, it's always been like that, they come and go, as quickly as they can, the happier you are, the faster it will be gone, how come?
How about one of the old topic, or a trending topic that have been with us since the longest time? No not talking about sex but yea the thing call love, it happens to me, they come quickly and left quickly too, don't seems to capture it for a longer time, the longest was 4 years plus and poof, there you go, it's gone.
I am easily cheered when I see the people that I care are happy, but then when I look back at myself, I don't know what went wrong, most of them just want to have some fun, well isn't it more fun and happy when you can be with someone that you really have the heart to be with? Doesn't fun originated from the feeling of happy, and doesn't happy feelings are generated when you know you can love someone who loves you back?
I am in a totally different situation, I have a heart of steel for the longest time, I won't want to blame the previous relationships that made me into this, I don't believe in fairytale no more, I don't believe that if you love someone whole heartily, they will too, I don't believe that even if you do your best, they will appreciate.
I am just negative towards this word call love, call me a non believer, and I am not afraid to admit it.
Randomly saw this tweet on twitter which is quite meaningful.
Sunday, January 09, 2011
She was adventurous, he was adventurous.
When they were at the beach, it was the wrong season of the year, she wasn’t feeling adventurous, and just planning to stroll down the beach and see the sun set before the rain comes.
He was being a boy, a rascal, persuading her to do parasailing together…
The girl was being stubborn, and the guy was pushing her limits…
“Really, it would be fun, parasailing only, I thought you are always up for adventure?!”
“No I don’t feel like doing it like now at this moment, I really don’t have the mood…”
“Come let’s try, really, just come!!”
“I don’t want really… I really don’t feel like it…”
The conversation was merely the same outcome, he won’t give up asking her to try parasailing, and she won’t let it in by rejecting him… At one point, she was pissed and angry…
“I said I don’t want, means I don’t want lah! I really don’t want!!! Stop asking me to try, I don’t want!!!...”
Almost at her top of her voice, he too at his top of his voice but with that cheeky face said it with a really fast pace…
“Ok so either parasailing or you marry me!”
“I will rather marry you!” – Without really knowing what she had just said…?
He was laughing and asking “So you rather marry me over parasailing?”
She pinched him on his arms, and started laughing but insisted that she won’t do para sailing.
This story somehow made me cried.
Thank you for entering my life now, before 2010 said goodbye, he did not kiss me goodbye and gave me sweet words on his last day, maybe you actually spoken to 2010 and you both figure out that I shouldn't have a good start with you.
Just so you know, I think it is getting better, when everything is clearer, I will be controlling you and making things to flow all my way...
Just so you know...
I miss the sun, beach and sand already...
"It is our attitude at the beginning of a difficult task which, more than anything else, will affect its successful outcome."
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
There are some pictures I will really love to share here, these are some that I took during the cruise when we were stopping at Phuket for a day. =)
I've been to Phuket during 2009, it was really a memorable one, although we went there during the wrong season, when it was raining and the beach was rough, but then still we enjoyed it, at least I did, and it was a happy one.
These are some of the pictures taken during last year's visit, when I was there to watch one of the famous show
This year, I was back at the same beach, but a different group of lovelies, different feelings...
It was during the afternoon when we left the mother ship to Phuket Island...
Besides only open fire in games like left 4 dead, Karen, Fresh and I just have to follow the boys (Tim Tiah, Nic Chay and Firdy) to do the real thing, I am proud that I have fired a shot gun, and it was freaking awesome!
After some really good massage, we then pamper ourselves with the beautiful sunset
And gotten some real tiny crab as hair pin - Ok we didn't kill it, it's just so fascinating to have this little small creatures on your palms, then soon on your head...
Something that everyone will wanna do when they are at the beach - Jumpshots
By night time, we met up with the rest of the nuffies, some of them were letting go their wishes to the dark sky, which this small little lights lightened the sky slightly, pretty.
Back to the ship for dinner, and really, the ship from far was just pretty, classy and elegant, which I couldn't believe that I was going back to that classy huge thing.
It was really pretty, everything was, the ambiance, the people...
I was thinking a lot during the cruise trip, I don't know is it because of the whole atmosphere feeding me sentimental thoughts or it's just me, but I do enjoy every moment of the trip, it was really one awesome trip I have had so far in my life.